24 hours

too many time, i fell so free...
so little time, i feel like i din do anything yet.
i feel like ,time is moving really fast..that i dun hav enough time to do my assignments....
yet i'm see free all the day....
strange, but how can this happen?
assignments coming , all due arounf the same time. i did prepeare them, but i feel like i have not really been doing my work.....
bluek!!!!normally i dun feel the tension, but why the feeling is so intense?
i'm not myself lately, where am i??what am i doing here??
gimme a break, i need to look for myself....
is that anything that feelings that are felt for too long will be repressed?
cuz the only feeling that i'm having now is worry and fear...
can someone tell me how is it to feel happy ?how is it to laugh truely from the heart?

black wing黑色翅膀

my wings turn black, dark age is coming towards me and i went straight down...
people say wat is the meaing of losing?
so i ask ...what is the meaning if gaining?
between the thin line of taking and gaining, i fell....i dropped.....
my wings turned black.....
a fallen angel.
is scary, is makin people feel the difference in me...
i crashed, hurting myself...
and i stood up, making an contract with the devil, i've sold my soul to the devil.
SInce ancient, goin into an contract with the devil is not a good thing...
i know, but this is the onyl way to save myself.
LAsing or Gaining.....
In this world, there is balance, in order to take u have to give.....
and i've made my choice....
黑暗天使,
染黑的翅膀...我堕落了...
重重的摔倒...
得到之余还要付出, 这代价...我做了选择,
我和恶魔做了交易,出卖了我的灵魂,背叛了我的原则.
堕落天使,
染黑了翅膀,心竟然还在滴着红红的血?

3/8 ladies day

3/8, today is ladies day....eerr, can call women's day oso....haha
i thought today would be just like any other day, normal as ever.....but then.....
i c the true side of XX chromosomes today....
JUSCO METROPRIMA got sales 2day, i duno y i end up there.....
WAHHHH......the ppl like all the things dun need money wan,
SO, i ask my bro...all these things free wan arr???how come ppl like fight fot the stuffs wan arR???
HAHA......
FUIYO....i kena push all around, step all around....and i think i terKNOCK into other ppl dunno how many times.....'not cuz i want to, i was pushed duno by who......!!!!!'
And, of all the people there....over 75% are ladies@women....letz call them females....
the other 25% was standin there....lookin puzzeled, like whoa.....how can these ppl can go till this extreme????
so, i get to know another side of females.....well, i understand that not every person can go to that extreme.....haha, but wat to do?money hard to earn nowadays.......
but still it show 1 fact, malaysian most liked words(top 3)
1)free
2)offer
3)discount
not to mention....SALES...haha.................

NAM YAN, SAN FU SAI.....(cantonese)

Sometimes, i believe that that a good lie is necessary. especially in the world of a couple,it is more improtant.
during the time when the two person is really in love, they only see each other in the eyes.And because of thet feeling, MEN started their first lie, MEN say"you are the first person that made my heart beat." actually, a man's heart jump 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.
"i shall spend a whole of my life time loving you."well, thats is only applicable if the man is still with the girl.
so, when a girl gets slightly fatter, gained some weigth. so, she shyly ask the boyfren, "am i fat?"the guy would say again, "nola, u where got fat???now is just nice ma, i like the way u look now." but ever since that night, that man would never bring that girl friend to for supper again.Why?because he is afraid that the hot chick will turn into a fat pig.
the man and the girl are walking an the street, along come a hot chick...by nature, all man will look , well....at least one look. So , the girl will ask, "who is prettier?me or her?" Well, here is a typical answer..."in my heart, u are the most pretty person in the world" WOW, the girl listen and get very happy. HAHA! little does she knows, the man said "IN MY HEART", so in reality still...that other girl is hotter and prettier....
sometines, men doesn't mean to lie.they do it to make the girl happy, to stop WAR.
Haiz, MEN...XAN FU SAI(cantonese)

善意的谎言

善意的谎言

有些时候，我相信善意的谎言是必要的，尤其是在爱情的世界里，它的存在更为重要。

在热恋时期，你浓我浓的两人眼中只有彼此，对方的存在等于全世界。就因为这一刹那的激情，开始了了男人的谎言: “你是第一个让我心动的女子。” 其实，他一天24 小时心都在动。

“我将花一辈子的时间爱你一个人。” 如果他还没有变心的话。当女人身材略为发胖，娇滴滴的问男友自己有没有发胖时，男人将会诚恳的回答: “你哪里会胖? 这样刚刚好，我喜欢!” 可是，他从此不再带她吃宵夜，以免貂婵变母猪的恶梦发生。

逛街时，有美女迎面而来，女友问: “她美还是我美?” 男友会回答，在我心目中你是最美的。女友开心的笑了，但，女友忘记了男友回答: “在我心目中” ，可是，在现实世界中，还是别人比较美。

也许，男人的谎言是言不由衷，但也是为了取悦女人，平息纷争。

唉，男人啊男人，真是辛苦你了!

To eat the fruit of autumn during summer

I’m a person that has a strong sense of myself,

People around me said, I magnify happiness and sadness around me;

True, I’m this kind of person…I don’t deny it…

And maybe is because of this, I just need a small matter to make me feel very happy

In the same way, I can be wounded easily, even by a small matter…

To GIVE or To TAKE, I have to make choice of my happiness and sorrow ness….

Unfortunately, my happiness brings her sadness,

That’s why, I choose to let go…

Although I’m not willing to GIVE, but I’ll let everything go, leaving nothing behind

This is the only way I can show my love to her.

The cut in my heart, is it sweet? Or is it bitter?

I do not know; I’m not sure either…

Because I know, BOTH OF US does not mean the two of us, I wish her well

Letting go my heart, is it really a let go for me?

I doubt I can face other people the same way, I doubt I can ever treat her the same…

Am I magnifying happiness? Or my sadness? I do not know,

Cuz I cant feel anything, or should I say what kind of feeling should I have?

Between me and her, him and her; me and him, him and her….

There’s a sense of simple in the complicated situation.

To eat the fruit of autumn during summer, the only taste one can get is bitter…

在夏天摘秋天的果实，得到的只是淡淡的苦涩。

我，是个很强自我意识的人。

朋友常说，我往往放大身边的快乐及悲伤。

的确，我是酱的人。。我并不否认。。。。

也许就是这样，一件小小的事情就可以让我觉得很快乐；

同样的，小小的伤口亦可以让我严重受创。

在舍与取之间，我必须作出快乐和伤悲的选择。

但是，我的快乐会带来她的悲痛。

所以，我选择舍弃。。。

虽然不是心甘情愿，但我也会舍的干干净净，不留半点痕迹。

这就是我爱她的方式。

这伤口，是甜蜜? 是痛苦?

我不知道，也不确定。。。

因为我知道两个人不等于我们，所以我祝福她，希望她的到所有她想的。

放开心扉，这是解脱吗?

我怀疑我还能以相同的心情去面对别人吗?

我在放大快乐? 或悲伤? 我不知道。。。

因为我没有感觉，或许我应该还有什么感受呢?

我对她，她对他，他对她，她对我，

简单中带有些复杂。

在夏天摘秋天的果实，得到的只是淡淡的苦涩。