其实还爱你

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
this is about a person, a person that had to watch his girl leave him,
is like the wind from the thin air, cutting through his flesh , cutting him deep right straight to his heart.
he cant show that he is a weak person, yet deep inside, this man is hurt so deeply
all he wanted was for her to be happy,
he knows that all she cared about was another person....
he had to act happy all day just to please her,
when she left him for HIM, He did not say anything;
he was hiding his last words in his heart:"CAN YOU STAY?"

listening to this song, i feel like cryin...
did the composer wrote that song for me?how come i felt such impact upon listening to this song?
i never want to say goodbye, i know i'm lying to myself if i say i dont feel anything now...but everything is over now;
words deep within me, "i still love you", but what hav i done for you?what can i do?