lately, lately.....i got no time for the EMOness

WAlau.....nowadays la no more time to play online game edi la,
i miss my wan mei online,
i miss maple story,
i miss pirate king online( lvl 40, sharpshooter..), how long i used edi....haiz,hiaz,
why leh?
assignments, presentation... so many things to do;
so much time used on studies, so many times used to read journals,
so many time used to prepare for the presentation, for 1 mark only...y i so POK MENG???
how come arr???maybe can win the presentation??
aiyo, got so many other ppl presenting, when will coem to my turn la...
got Meloon summore, i think that group, terror WEI.....well, at least i think so la...=)
haha.....
i no time for my EMO blogs edi....
hiaz, so u r readin this instead of my emoness,
and JOn, thanks la....
Got u , got extension; if not for u, i'll be working my ass off now....

L.O.V.E. 爱情

爱的力量,
有多大?
爱,令人充满力量.
爱的力量,
有多少?
爱令人无所不能.
爱,爱,爱
仁爱,怜爱,痛爱,恋爱,种种的爱...
我要的,
我不清楚...
因为爱,
不但能蒙蔽双眼,
还能令心灵紧闭.

Perhaps love,

I don’t remember when it happened.
I’d get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It’s a little awkward that I keep saying to you that “it’s nothing”
and that “my heart’s just trifling”

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand
would be to become me and feel them.
I’m already inside of you, just how you’re inside of me.
I don’t know if we’ve gotten used to the meaning between us.

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I’ll make up for all the time lost.

I’ll be with you and give you only good memories,
so in return you can’t leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I’m loving you (until then)
like this (only you) already

life, to GIVE and TAKE....人生,施与受

人活在着世界上,一定有本身的生存价值.
Everyperson that is living in this is here for a value,
我的生存价值?--我要过得精彩.
Mine? i want to live my life to the fullest.
其实,每个人都一样...
well. everyone wants the same thing
生命中,匆忙的路人...匆匆走过.
in life, people passes by ,
有多少人在我们心心中留下不可磨灭的痕迹?
How often that there is a person that leaves a print in our heart that is so significant?
又有多少人只是生命中的过客?
How many people are just passer by?

一步一脚印,凡走过必留下痕迹.
a step leaving back a foot print; wherever u pass by, make sure it leaves one
在别人的生命中,有多少份量全看自己.
how deep is our foot print in other people's life, it depends on us,
别问他人能给你多少,问问自己能为他人付出多少.
don't ask what other people can give you, try ask urself what can u give to people around you
施比受来得快乐,
It is happier to give than to take,
能给,就必定能受.
when u can give, u'll receive....
问题在于,你能吗?
the question is , CAN YOU?

天使, you're my angel.

你就是我的天使 You are my angel
保护著我的天使 The one that protects me
从此我再没有忧伤 I've never experience sadness since i met you

你就是我的天使 You are my angel
给我快乐的天使 Angel that brought me happiness
甚至我学会了飞翔 Because of you i learn how to fly

飞过人间的无常 After i fly through the world seeing things around it
才懂爱才是宝藏 Only then i realise that LOVE is such precious
不管世界变得怎么样 I don't care how the world change into
只要有你就会是天堂 It will be heaven for me only if you're there with me

像孩子依赖著肩膀 Just like little kids leaning on someone's shoulder
像眼泪依赖著脸庞 Just like tears lying on the cheek
你就像天使一样 You're just like an angel
给我依赖 GIving me a place to depend on
给我力量 Giving me energy

像诗人依赖著月亮 Just like a poet depending on the moon
像海豚依赖海洋Just like dolphins depending on the ocean
你是天使 You're my angel
你是天使 You're my angel
你是我最初和最后的天堂 You're my first and final heaven.

i really want to fly

如果说了后悔是不是一切就能倒退
if i say i regret, does it mean that everything can go on as if it never happened
回忆多么美活着多么狼狈
how beautiful are the memories;how struggle it is to stay alive
为什么这个世界总要叫人尝伤悲
why does people have to suffer living in this world
我不能了解也不想了解
I cant understand it, i don't want to understand it also
我好想好想飞
i really feel like flying,
逃离这个疯狂世界
to run away from this crazy world
那么多苦那么多累
there're so much of hard time, so much of tiredness
那么多莫名的泪水
There're so much tears that came down for no reason
我好想好想飞
I really feel like flying
逃离这个疯狂的世界
to run away from this crazy world
如果是你发现了我
if that is you, that have found me
也别将我挽回
please don't hold me back

想了你一整夜再也想不起你的脸
been thinking of you for the whole night,but i cant think of your face
你是一种感觉写在夏夜晚风里面
you're like a feeling that is written in the summer wind
青春是挽不回的水转眼消失在指间
youth is disappearing right in front of my eyes, slipping through my fingers
用力的浪费再用力的后悔
Wasting time like HELL, then regerting it like HELL
我好想好想飞
i really want to fly
逃离这个疯狂世界
to run away from this crazy world
如果是你发现了我
if you found me
也别将我挽回
please don't hold me back

桔梗花

桔梗花的花语是永恒不变的爱。
但据说 桔梗有两种花语
永恒的爱 无望的爱
为什么这两种看来天地之差的花语会出现在同种花身上呢？
不知道...
大概跟这个世界上的很多事一样
不需要什么道理
第一次见到桔梗 不是亲眼所见
而是在三岛由纪夫的短片小说《繁花盛开的森林》有这样一段
秋露仿佛一团白烟
从住宅的后门飘了过去
这些烟雾就如同无声的烟火般
在附近一带的蔓延
在秋露飘漫中
依稀可见远处有许多桔梗花
这些花如薄棉被般
在秋露中绽放着寂寞
从此桔梗在我心中留下的印象
就是伴随这如同梦一般的秋露
无声的烟火
以及遍地的花草的平原中传过来的吹笛声
寂寞而永恒
后来有一次在花店里看到一种很美丽的花
问了老板 他说是桔梗
当时非常喜出望外
原来这就是桔梗
心里忍不住出现这句话
那么细致脆弱的花瓣
跟想象中的完全一样
花色纯白，紫色，还有白色周围镶有紫色，兰色 花边的
于是开始送人桔梗
适合送情人也适合送永不在相见的对象
因为它既是永恒
也是无望
或是永恒无望的爱
所以她才会在秋露中透露着寂寞的气息
那逐微弱的声音是将死的感觉
也是永恒的感觉
我更希望是永恒不变的爱

感情;那,是真的.

i'm sorry this hav to be in chinese...
我想了又想,我很爱你;你也许也很喜欢我...
但是我可能真的不是你的他.
冷漠的对待你,我真的真的很心痛.
每一次与你擦身而过,每一次我的心宛如撕裂般痛苦.
我不是有心这样对你的,这也是为了你好.
你和他已经为了我吵了场架,心中有块疙瘩,
我不想让你们的关系因为我而恶化.
我不是你想要的人,
我,只会把要说的一字一句,一行行的写下来;却从来没对你说过半个字.
也许我们只适合在虚拟的世界里沟通.
或网络,或手机短讯...
在这里,
我你,你他,我他,你你,他他,我我....
无禁忌的谈着,谁也不拖累谁.
我越过了界限,跌进了无底洞...
我不害了你,
对不起,我爱你;对不起,我对你没感觉.
相同的时间,相同的两句话,从相同的人口中,对相同的人说...
我没办法履行诺言,我也背叛了我说的一切...
但我不曾骗过你.
如果,我们之间真的曾经有过一段感情;那,是真的.

24 hours

too many time, i fell so free...
so little time, i feel like i din do anything yet.
i feel like ,time is moving really fast..that i dun hav enough time to do my assignments....
yet i'm see free all the day....
strange, but how can this happen?
assignments coming , all due arounf the same time. i did prepeare them, but i feel like i have not really been doing my work.....
bluek!!!!normally i dun feel the tension, but why the feeling is so intense?
i'm not myself lately, where am i??what am i doing here??
gimme a break, i need to look for myself....
is that anything that feelings that are felt for too long will be repressed?
cuz the only feeling that i'm having now is worry and fear...
can someone tell me how is it to feel happy ?how is it to laugh truely from the heart?

black wing黑色翅膀

my wings turn black, dark age is coming towards me and i went straight down...
people say wat is the meaing of losing?
so i ask ...what is the meaning if gaining?
between the thin line of taking and gaining, i fell....i dropped.....
my wings turned black.....
a fallen angel.
is scary, is makin people feel the difference in me...
i crashed, hurting myself...
and i stood up, making an contract with the devil, i've sold my soul to the devil.
SInce ancient, goin into an contract with the devil is not a good thing...
i know, but this is the onyl way to save myself.
LAsing or Gaining.....
In this world, there is balance, in order to take u have to give.....
and i've made my choice....
黑暗天使,
染黑的翅膀...我堕落了...
重重的摔倒...
得到之余还要付出, 这代价...我做了选择,
我和恶魔做了交易,出卖了我的灵魂,背叛了我的原则.
堕落天使,
染黑了翅膀,心竟然还在滴着红红的血?

3/8 ladies day

3/8, today is ladies day....eerr, can call women's day oso....haha
i thought today would be just like any other day, normal as ever.....but then.....
i c the true side of XX chromosomes today....
JUSCO METROPRIMA got sales 2day, i duno y i end up there.....
WAHHHH......the ppl like all the things dun need money wan,
SO, i ask my bro...all these things free wan arr???how come ppl like fight fot the stuffs wan arR???
HAHA......
FUIYO....i kena push all around, step all around....and i think i terKNOCK into other ppl dunno how many times.....'not cuz i want to, i was pushed duno by who......!!!!!'
And, of all the people there....over 75% are ladies@women....letz call them females....
the other 25% was standin there....lookin puzzeled, like whoa.....how can these ppl can go till this extreme????
so, i get to know another side of females.....well, i understand that not every person can go to that extreme.....haha, but wat to do?money hard to earn nowadays.......
but still it show 1 fact, malaysian most liked words(top 3)
1)free
2)offer
3)discount
not to mention....SALES...haha.................

NAM YAN, SAN FU SAI.....(cantonese)

Sometimes, i believe that that a good lie is necessary. especially in the world of a couple,it is more improtant.
during the time when the two person is really in love, they only see each other in the eyes.And because of thet feeling, MEN started their first lie, MEN say"you are the first person that made my heart beat." actually, a man's heart jump 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.
"i shall spend a whole of my life time loving you."well, thats is only applicable if the man is still with the girl.
so, when a girl gets slightly fatter, gained some weigth. so, she shyly ask the boyfren, "am i fat?"the guy would say again, "nola, u where got fat???now is just nice ma, i like the way u look now." but ever since that night, that man would never bring that girl friend to for supper again.Why?because he is afraid that the hot chick will turn into a fat pig.
the man and the girl are walking an the street, along come a hot chick...by nature, all man will look , well....at least one look. So , the girl will ask, "who is prettier?me or her?" Well, here is a typical answer..."in my heart, u are the most pretty person in the world" WOW, the girl listen and get very happy. HAHA! little does she knows, the man said "IN MY HEART", so in reality still...that other girl is hotter and prettier....
sometines, men doesn't mean to lie.they do it to make the girl happy, to stop WAR.
Haiz, MEN...XAN FU SAI(cantonese)

善意的谎言

善意的谎言

有些时候，我相信善意的谎言是必要的，尤其是在爱情的世界里，它的存在更为重要。

在热恋时期，你浓我浓的两人眼中只有彼此，对方的存在等于全世界。就因为这一刹那的激情，开始了了男人的谎言: “你是第一个让我心动的女子。” 其实，他一天24 小时心都在动。

“我将花一辈子的时间爱你一个人。” 如果他还没有变心的话。当女人身材略为发胖，娇滴滴的问男友自己有没有发胖时，男人将会诚恳的回答: “你哪里会胖? 这样刚刚好，我喜欢!” 可是，他从此不再带她吃宵夜，以免貂婵变母猪的恶梦发生。

逛街时，有美女迎面而来，女友问: “她美还是我美?” 男友会回答，在我心目中你是最美的。女友开心的笑了，但，女友忘记了男友回答: “在我心目中” ，可是，在现实世界中，还是别人比较美。

也许，男人的谎言是言不由衷，但也是为了取悦女人，平息纷争。

唉，男人啊男人，真是辛苦你了!

To eat the fruit of autumn during summer

I’m a person that has a strong sense of myself,

People around me said, I magnify happiness and sadness around me;

True, I’m this kind of person…I don’t deny it…

And maybe is because of this, I just need a small matter to make me feel very happy

In the same way, I can be wounded easily, even by a small matter…

To GIVE or To TAKE, I have to make choice of my happiness and sorrow ness….

Unfortunately, my happiness brings her sadness,

That’s why, I choose to let go…

Although I’m not willing to GIVE, but I’ll let everything go, leaving nothing behind

This is the only way I can show my love to her.

The cut in my heart, is it sweet? Or is it bitter?

I do not know; I’m not sure either…

Because I know, BOTH OF US does not mean the two of us, I wish her well

Letting go my heart, is it really a let go for me?

I doubt I can face other people the same way, I doubt I can ever treat her the same…

Am I magnifying happiness? Or my sadness? I do not know,

Cuz I cant feel anything, or should I say what kind of feeling should I have?

Between me and her, him and her; me and him, him and her….

There’s a sense of simple in the complicated situation.

To eat the fruit of autumn during summer, the only taste one can get is bitter…

在夏天摘秋天的果实，得到的只是淡淡的苦涩。

我，是个很强自我意识的人。

朋友常说，我往往放大身边的快乐及悲伤。

的确，我是酱的人。。我并不否认。。。。

也许就是这样，一件小小的事情就可以让我觉得很快乐；

同样的，小小的伤口亦可以让我严重受创。

在舍与取之间，我必须作出快乐和伤悲的选择。

但是，我的快乐会带来她的悲痛。

所以，我选择舍弃。。。

虽然不是心甘情愿，但我也会舍的干干净净，不留半点痕迹。

这就是我爱她的方式。

这伤口，是甜蜜? 是痛苦?

我不知道，也不确定。。。

因为我知道两个人不等于我们，所以我祝福她，希望她的到所有她想的。

放开心扉，这是解脱吗?

我怀疑我还能以相同的心情去面对别人吗?

我在放大快乐? 或悲伤? 我不知道。。。

因为我没有感觉，或许我应该还有什么感受呢?

我对她，她对他，他对她，她对我，

简单中带有些复杂。

在夏天摘秋天的果实，得到的只是淡淡的苦涩。